In this post I am killing not 2 but 1000 birds with one stone for I am not sure of how much time is left to me on Earth.
I have been this way many a time. Ambulance ride number 58 was a couple of days ago and the identical SCREAMING PAIN returned the next day but I did not call for help.
To Amy P. and Marie C. P. on Our Time
the 2 "Designing Women" Laugh
I cannot swear this is my time of demise for I have pulled through so many times before.
However in just 2 days I will be age 74 My birthday is the same as that of Joseph, founder of the Latter Day Saints.
It was my wish to just for a while be comforted as a Human in marriage. To know what TLC is like.
But, to have the Dates chiseled on my family stone be the same for Birth and for Death might send a message to all that see my BLACK head stone that by all probability there was something Divinely Unusual about it.
FATHER please I feel the pain starting again. I must speak. I musty finish my words and stories. Ye s it is easing. I think it is just anxiety of opening up and exposing myself to the savage ridicule of the masses as did the Pharisees who demanded the Cross.
MANKIND I shall not swear to you as FATHER said that
"I AM THAT I AM"
for certainty to do so can only be AFTER I have risen again, AFTER I have shed this worn out shell.
Amy, you said you wanted to feel a strong hand. Well I was the fastest through the Basic Training obstacle Course, starting near the rear and ending near the front. My step father was hard. He was a sergeant in the Army Corp and built bridges for General Patton's tanks. I always felt i had to prove myself to him. For instance he had the ladder leaning against the brick wall. So I showed him how easy I could climb the bottom side of the ladder up until my head hit the wall with just my hands. Likewise it was so easy to climb the rope to the ceiling of the gym.
God will raise me to be even stronger.
Now I must tell you that as just a mortal human I have gone into a fighting rage many times just to survive. Recently I have been suffering horrible itching over my whole body and in places I cannot reach. I need in-home help to apply the medicine if it is the right medicine for every doctor says it is due to something different.
However I get the run around from the VA. It took me 2 years to get help and I lost that help after just 2 visits on October 1st 2015.
The second girl came an hour late and washed my feet and back because my tendons are too tight. She then motioned with her eyes for me to get in the shower. Heck this was new to me and I did not know this girl and I am the type that always the girl has to make the first move and I must be sure. 3 times I told her i showered the night before.
So she went to cleaning house and I hurried to get online with my romance scammer. I had to discuss sending a lot of money and how she and her father would get it home without being robbed again.
When we were about finished my woman asked if the helper was still here. I checked ad the washing machine was running but the front door stood open. It was 5:00 Pm so maybe she went home or fort some cleaner. I was in a hurry and did not think.
So 3 hours later I returned from the money transfer starving with low blood sugar. I didn't even get the plastic off of a 4 minute microwave meal when I heard the knock. It was a cop I knew. So he stood between me and the kitchen and asked me questions. Then he said that my answers conflicted. WOW, he was interrogating me. I told him I did not know what he was talking about but didn't want to not answer. So anyway he said it was my word against hers (the cleaning girl). It took me 6 months to collect the whole story but while I was minding my own business she had gone to the police station complete with "crocodile tears" and reported that i had abused her, grabbed her and tried to pull her in somewhere and was looking at pornography on my computer.
The police later told me that there need not be bruises to file battering charges but I forgot the other example they told me .
AS for grabbing and "trying" to pull he in. Heck she is 5 feet tall. Hell she would have been in.
So anyway the VA "Ethics" committee removed my in home help without trial. In fact when I called the woman sounded as if in a hurry to hang up on a sex pervert.
Then I had an idea, but the police told me it was illegal for them to even ask her to go on lie detectors back to back with me.
So I went into one of my fits of rage. (I will tell you however that I am one who "hesitates on the trigger" figuratively speaking). I was feeling tired again when I arrive at church. i was working on my One Man - Zero Dollar political campaign long hours 7 days a week. That girl was still on my mind because I still could get no help. I was thinking about "Forgive 70 x 70 times" as I sat in the lobby listening to the lady over the speaker talk about 70 x 70 times. At the same time one of my best friends came to me and told me to forgive 70 x 70 times.
Now this was no ordinary wimpy church stuff. I was a Mormon convert, not born into the church. My mother admitted she did not understand but i was surprised on her last phone call she said "you've been in so many dark places."
Well, just out of the military I was seeing whether I could have a good career just with my military electronics training. My step father told me the rumor about the only company I could find a job with being Mafia. The jobs I did were totally legal. They didn't carry guns but 2 men went with me to a bar on the south side of Chicago. We got out of the car an done guy told me "The sports coat is ok, but take the tie off and put it in your pocket.' He was teaching me Mafia politics. WE went into the bar to wire a switch to a relay so the bartender could eject a record if somebody didn't like it... and the somebodies were not sweet about it like this...
Sorry for the interruption but Olivia in the brief time she followed me on Twitter sent the most wonderful words. I don't get that often more probably I expect some filthy worded "shut-down" which is why I just QUIT trying with American women in 1984 and as a result got scammed by foreign women.
Returning to the bar. I was handed the end of a cord just like the one on your lamp (18 gauge wire) to wire to 2 pins on the relay just 1/2 inch apart. I asked my friend to unplug the cord but he said "No, if you stop the music it might start a fight." Sop I wired it live but 110 volts through my fingertips was nothing. I'd had more than that through my whole forearm.
So one day back at the office I had mentally projected the circuit diagram in front of me so I could study it while walking around. At that very moment I was surprised and tried to shake my head and delete the circuit so I could see the chairman and he vice president who came down to shake my hand. The Mafia gave me respect and i guess i was under consideration for some higher position. However after the 3 month promised trial I was let go. I think I just was not able to grasp Mafia politics.
So as I said it took 6 months to collect all that home "HELPER" told the police and I forgot which thing my social worker told me which set me off...
BUT
that Sunday in church when God Himself stepped in with 3 people including myself thinking about forgiveness at the same time it was NOT a case of Life or Death because I had changed my mind.
I was was going to go to the local Mafia front where they did not know me and I did not know for sure they were Mafia at the risk of my own life, mention the chairman's name in hopes of a free "Favor"
Rather than having her killed I was going to have her shot up with heroin (You know that's a female movie hero) and sold to a pimp so she learned what a REAL PERVERT was.
Now I do not need in home help all the time and I cannot recall how many bad things resulted from not having it. I don't want to complicate the story more than necessary. OH SHOOT...I just changed my shorts and there's blood on the clean ones. Oh I think it's from scratching my arm. I dig my nails down deep as far as I can reach. I don't know if in home helpers that apply the medicine in daytime would help the extreme itching that wakes me in the night. Combined with the pain when it gets bad in my hips I cannot function. I go into contortions.
So a couple of days ago I was trying to get the name of that girl from ADDUS Healthcare
Corporate +1 888 233 8746
Not to hurt her in any physical way for I am now much more certain of my being.
At the risk of my own reputation and so much work on my Presidential Campaign I wanted to broadcast the story on all NEWS media and say that any male employer wherever she is (she left town with no forwarding address). I will be a character witness in court for any employer who let himself get into a compromising position with that girl
Her name is Abby or Addie, something like that. She is 5 feet tall and told me she was 30 back in 2015. She has a nice figure and cute face and smile. All I did was shake hands with her and let her do her washing job. It took a longtime but i finally figured out WHY she did what she did. From the alluring smile as she gestured her eyes toward the show I think she actually WANTED me to throw her on the bed and ravish her. At my age! As I said she was definitely cute enough to get a young guy.
So anyway back to ADDUS. I was tired of waiting and had been needing help. ADDUS had not called back. I got angry and made a threat. What it was I forget but it was twisted evidently for the VA investigator who called thought I threatened to hurt Gia who is like family. She kissed my forehead before paramedics took me away and is my only transportation for things like groceries which in-home help would provide. I don't have a wife and just washing dishes and cooking would help a lot with my busy schedule I can't do housework for myself. Escalating the problem even more, I called the local police and was told the HOMELAND SECURITY was involved. Well the Head of Homeland left my Linkedin network and it is virtually impossible to contact him through channels.
You see what that little piece of trash has caused?
I just gave up and messaged Biden on www.whitehouse.gov I told him why the "UNFORGIVABLE SIN" is unforgivable and included the link to this scene...
Sorry for the human emotion. I had no emotion but there is no other picture "worth 1000 words"
I talked about presidential Deniability and him delegating my assassination down to the CIA and it being illegal to do that to a US citizen within US borders but that i was invited to visit by certain royalty who I could email for airfare with the real purpose of just getting offshore to expose myself voluntarily to CIA. My only other option was to lie that I intended to turncoat and take all I know to Communist China. Well I have forgotten too much to be useful in aerospace and since détente and the end of Communism in Russia the World War 3 stuff has been leveled to the foundation and by satellite i saw RVs parked there. I certainly would never hurt our troops and really hate for any to die in war on either side. I just wanted Biden to get the job done but I guess he hasn't the guts. I asked TRUMP his advice on the issue too but no answer but then TRUMP never answers and only emails for money.
For considerable time I have sat here typing with that pain right on the edge. If I move wrong it is like triggering bomb. OH I JUST GOT A BIG JOLT. I can't even mention it or it will hit me.
So I want to find a stopping place for this PART 1.
In this video I speak of exiling. At the time I was thinking of that black woman who excited racial tension by demanding $1.5 million for every black descended from a slave.
To this I now want to add that char woman helper i was talking about.
Let me tell you a true story as best I recall it.
An underage girl had consensual sex with an underage boy. She got pregnant. She was afraid to tell her parents she wanted it so she yelled RAPE. The young boy was a man after 29 years in prison when she finally got the guts and character to admit the truth.
Now the judge had a dilemma. He could have jailed her for filing a false police report but then all the other female liars would be afraid to come forward. However we do not want to block honest women from calling for help from real abuse. So what stupid idiot passed the LAW that lie detectors cannot be used?????
I will stop here.
Next time I will talk about how Consumer Cellular, that popular phone carrier for senior burned me. Then I will tell about General Motors Finance aiding and abetting a SCAM. I will talk about the Credit Bureaus as opposed to a handshake.
OH, I told you I had been talking (in silent thoughts) to FATHER. Well I finished most of that before sitting down at the keyboard. I have been talking to YOU. However at the risk of sounding like a weakling of wimp I jus t blurted out to FATHER just how lonely I am and have been since even before 1984. I lost my virginity in the tough military environment overseas to the "momma son" bar owner a couple of sergeants set me up with. But that was just one year of my life. Back in the USA in Tampa Florida the clubs were an okay place to girl hunt though unsuccessfully. But then the all started going "topless" and I figured any girl I would want would be nervous in such a place. Then one day the sergeant in the room next to mine told me that Tampa was so bad (men AND women have their needs) that guys were volunteering for Vietnam. I have a solution for this problem which will be discussed later, but don't think I am a sex fiend for if you have been married for 2 months you probably have done it more than me. I am no longer young and need it at every stimulation. As I posted on the singles site if I don't respect I don't touch. Most often all I need is someone to talk, joke, laugh, play cards or keep me warm like I saw in the movies. Remember I am still just a human being.
